Malad-y.

Living in Malad kind of sucks.

There are definite pros. We pay no rent or utilites, for which I have my generous mother-in-law to be thankful for. She has been so good to us, I don't really know where to start. We also have instant babysitters for Tavyin, including grandpa, who lives 5 minutes away.

What is getting to me is the boredom. We do pretty much the same things every day, and getting out to "town" is a big deal. Getting out of Malad is an even bigger one because the nearest city that's worth going to for the shopping is Pocatello, then Logan, and both are about an hour away. I don't know anyone here, and I'm used to us socializing with our friends regularly. I'm sad that Tayvin doesn't have any friends to play with, and I don't have any girlfriends nearby to chat with or go to lunch with. There are nice people here who we could get to know, but we're moving in 2-3 months, so what's the point? Of course, I have no idea where we'll be moving to, so that's another item of stress.

Our ward is neat, and I would really like to serve so I would have something to do, but I'm pregnant and am moving soon, so there's no reason to give me a calling. I haven't been called to one yet, and I think doing it now would feel like a waste of time.

The good stuff? I do have friends out here, they're just a couple hours away. Jeremy has been so good about letting me get away for weekends so I can cram in my girl time all at once. I think that has been what's keeping me sane. It was also really nice to have Jeremy so close, and for his schedule to be flexible. If he wanted to take time off, he could. He started a new rotation today that is in Tremonton, about 45 minutes south of us, which stinks b/c he has the car all week, but he also gets 3-day weekends this entire rotation. Jeremy's mom has also said we can use her cars anytime we want.

Really, my life is pretty good right now. I think what stresses me out is the feeling of being in limbo. I'm having a baby in 2 months, and if she comes early there might be a chance that Jeremy will still be in Savannah or taking the PANCE exam. We'll also probably be moving shortly after the baby comes, which will be hard with a VBAC, and nigh impossible if I have another C-section. I have a lot going on in the future that I have no control over and can't plan for, so I have to try and just let it go and live day to day and see what happens.